It works again.. wish I could say the same
Saturday, October 16, 2004
My life right now.
1) Blogger Dashboard is working again.. I feel somehow vindicated, although in a small way.
2) I got a lap dance from a drag queen. If I could figure out how to post pic's I would make sure it ended up here, but those programs and I don't get along.
3) I have new rangs! They are great! Also pics would be cool, but see above.
4) I know that I have family and friends who truly love me, even though some of them don't have the words to come out and say it.
5) I am developing a group of friends that I honestly feel like I can rely on. Not that I haven't felt that way about any of the friends I was keeping company with, but there have still been gaps where old friends once were. Damn that sounds like I am trying to replace people in my life - not the case. I guess I just value people for what they bring to my life, nobody can be everything to anyone, and thus there are old strengths I was missing.
6) There is a big difference between not being with someone, and not being able to be with someone. The latter is depressing as all hell. When coupled with uncertainty this feeling is nearly disabling in it's all consuming nature. I'm not really looking for comments on this one, just needed to get it out again. If I don't, these are the kind of emotions that cause physical pain. In my experience it is hard to deal with the actual loss of someone you care about, no matter how large or small the time period may be. This is why we fear changes in our interpersonal relationships. This is why it took me an hour to write this post, and this is why at 12:00pm it is about damn time I got out of the house and did something other than set at home feeling alone.
Side note, when I ran the spell check blogger found no misspelled words.
posted by ZEUS @ 11:10 AM,
